Peringatan: Entry kali ni, entry yang penuh emosi. Sangat bahaya kepada orang yang otak-otak kecik dan mudah bengang dengan rungutan orang =P opsssss!!!!
Setelah sekian lama, semalam memang sempat sangat catch up dengan diri sendiri (hahaha, cmne tu? macam sebelum ni, berpisah dari badan je =P). maksudnye, i had my own sweet time. kalau tak, busy memanjang, sampai nak lipat baju, kemas katil pun kena cari mase terluang (huh, sudahla kau! cari masa terluang ke cari mood???) okay fine!! to be honest, nak cari mood. al-maklum la mood sudah lama lari ke laut.. hehe
oleh sebab itu, semalam berjaya post 2 entries. yahoooo!!!!!! (a great success, in this condition). so semalam juga, sempat la nak berbloghopping. bace2 blog B2B. seronok baca blog orang yang tengah prepare for their big day. macam- macam pengalaman. jealousnye la hai, sebab they already know when is the exact date. unlike us. tergantung macam tu je. sedih pun ade jugak. err, honestly memang sedih la. izzy sangat takut kalau kitaorang kena bertunang lama- lama. 2 days ago, ade la tanya ma dah ade tarikh belum, ma jawab, xde lagi.. izzy sangat2 hope it will be next year. seriously, bukan sebab desperate tapi sebab tak mau orang melanjutkan lagi citer2 mengarut pasal kitorang. yelah, dalam fasa bertunang ni, i really admit, sangat banyak cabaran dan dugaan. tambahan pulak, encik tunang dok sorang- sorang kat sebelah rumah, lagi la panjang cerita orang. T_T and i'm using his house compound for my extra English classes every weekend. plus the porch for my Mr. Khalid tersayang. hmmmm. So, kalau tak de cerita pun, orang akan reka- reka, seperti yang we had gone through before.
I used to ask Mr. AS untuk putus tunang sebab tak nak kena dugaan tunang yang teruk- teruk lagi, but, as a guy, he's wiser and less emotional. He successfully naturalized my feeling. tapi mase feeling tengah down, memang terasa la.. i can foresee that if our wedding is not during July next year, it will definitely be in 2014.. Izzy tak mau tunggu lama- lama seriously. dari Ogos 2012 (tarikh tunang) sampai 2014, it will be a very long journey for our relationship. orang lain mungkin boleh tunggu lama-lama and i memang respect they all sebab berjaya harungi sume ups and downs without going over the boundaries (i know you all know what i mean) =) ... but, maybe not for me. call be purba/kuno or whatever, i hate relationship yang hanging..(hahaha, terasa poyoss =P) lagipun, memang Islamic teaching tak galakkan bertunang lama- lama. hmmmm
well, kenapa izzy kata macam tu? two of my younger siblings are in Korea and UK at the mo, pursuing their studies. they already warned ma not to do the kenduri masa they all kat sana. means kena tunggu both balik.
hadeh, nangis rase memikirkan hal ni. mane tak nya, adik yang kat UK akan grad bulan 8 nanti and both parents akan fly ke sana for his convocation ceremony. kalau buat bulan 6, confirm2 dia tak leh balik sebab tengah exam lagi. then, lepas tu dah tak de cuti panjang except bulan 11 and 12. Ma hates the idea of hosting kenduri during monsoon. sebab rumah kitaorang confirm kena banjir. tak kan nak bersanding dalam perahu kot. dengan rumah tunggang - langgang. bulan 3? ma says, the holidays are too short. huwaaaa, tak ke maksudnye tahun depan?? hmmm, teremo sudah.
for now, izzy will choose to go with the flow. kalau kawin, kawin la kan? kalu tak, jom same2 membujang.. hahaha.. boleh tak macam tu? that's really words from orang yang dah putus asa.. hahahaha =P
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okay, the end of emosi much.. (boleh tarik nafas lega)
Love,
Miss Izzy